fizzlefozzle wrote:Thanks. The masturbation is an issue. I can't really help it. The more I abstain from it, like after three days, I get really excited easily.
I drink a lot of coffee and tea and refined sugar too. It's a bad combo, i want to quit.
I also went to chinese medicine man, and he said my spleen / stomach qi was weak, and i worry a lot. Recently, i feel really exhausted. Is there anyway i can replenish the spleen / stomach qi in my body, separate from practice? Also, the area around my rectum like (root chakra area) is really fucked up too.
I like what was said about 'without expectation' and the stillness. I think Stress and Depression and Worry are the main culprits for me.
I would really love to train under a teacher, in real life -- not just on the internet. I think it might be beneficial.
There's other phenomena I have experienced, but I attributed it in the past to kundalini activity, although that's just initial research.
Thanks
Caffeine and sugar is just a matter of weaning yourself from them. Small amounts are no big deal, it is not usually necessary for one to completely abstain, but as you gain sensitivity you will notice the effects more.
If spleen/stomach qi is weak, make sure you get more exercise and make sure you
sweat - a regular workout schedule should help restore the function.
Dont worry about kundalini, qi in the spine is not the same phenomena.
At these times where you feel excitable, those are the times to harness the arising potential and make better use of it instead of simply blowing off steam only to build up again. If you can do lower dantien breathing, you should be able to basically create the potential there and with the Yi on the LDT you should be able to draw the energy there and shrink the erection.
Make no mistake, this intention needs to come from you, be purified by you, applied by you. There is no such thing as spiritual welfare, you are solely responsible for putting out the effort and if you undermine yourself and dont give a dren when you are undermining, the results which manifest wont be as good. That said, dont place undue burden upon yourself, be natural, do not worry. (There is putting a requisite amount of forethought into something, and then there's obsessing over it. One is necessary and healthy, the other is not.)
Google the deer exercise and do it nightly before bed.
When arising in the morning, when you have morning wood, circulate it. Here is a morning vitality circulation exercise, I was going to type it out but I recalled I already had it typed, albeit this is a little more technical of a description than I was intending on presenting.
The cavity of mortality (root of the penis, aka huiyin, which stands for "confluence of all yin channels") is the source from which all vitality circulates to the body. Focus on the cavity as the point of departure for the vitality and "breathe through the channels" in the path outlined upon getting out of bed in the morning.
Some channel reference,
http://www.yinyanghouse.com/acupuncture ... an_graphic1-Breathe in to drive the vital breath up from the huiyin through the governing vessel (tu mo) in the spine to the brain
2-Breathe out to lower the vital breath through the conception vessel (jen mo) down the front of the body to return to the huiyin.
3-Breathe in raising from huiyin through CV (jen mo) to the cavity of vitality (aka lower dantien) continuing split in two along both sides of the belt vessel (tai mo) joining at the lower back, continuing on up to vertebrae T5 (point GV11 which is the heart point of the back) where it stops
4-Breathe out to let it flow from both shoulders down into the (positive) yang yu channels in the outer sides of both wrists, to the middle fingers before reaching the centers of both palms (PC8, laogung) where it stops (the common arm & legs channels are simply grouped together here since they flow in common direction.)
5-Breathe in to lift the vital breath from laogung into the (negative) yin yu channels on the insides of the wrists up to the chest where it stops
6-Breathe out to drive the vital breath down to the belt vessel where its two branches reunite before returning to the mortal cavity (huiyin)
7-Breathe in to lift it from the mortal cavity into the central channel (thrusting vessel, chung mo) up to the solar plexus (chiang kung cavity) where it stops; on no account should it rise above the heart!
8-Breathe out to send it from under the heart down to the huiyin where it divides into two to descend in the two (positive) yang chiao channels on the outer sides of the thighs and through the toes of the feet before reaching the yongquan cavity (KD1 point) where it stops
9-Breathe in to raise it from the yongquan into the (negative) yin chiao channels in the inner sides of the legs up to the huiyin and then to the lower dantien where it stops.
10-Breathe out to lower it to the huiyin where it stops.
This is especially effective if you do seated meditation at night. Even moreso if you can well maintain a still heart and don’t overindulge in senses. This circulation will eventually cause the vital force to thoroughly cleanse the channels and if you are able to produce real vitality it will vibrate through all of these channels, cleansing and purifying them.
As always settle in stillness after any energy work.